Indecision

I’ve come to realize that most men don’t know what they want.

The last time we talked, his answers were short. He seemed cold—standoffish even—like he was annoyed by my attempting to have a conversation with him, even though he was the one who had initiated it.

I decided to let him be. No use in wasting my time with a man I wasn’t even sure I was interested in. I was only entertaining him because I thought he liked me, but apparently, in our short courtship, I did or said something that he found unattractive, and rather than tell me plainly what that was, he decided it would be better to give me the cold shoulder and leave me guessing as to the cause of his sudden shift in attitude toward me.

Men.

I didn’t hear from him for a few weeks—long enough for me to forget him but short enough for me to wonder what was up when out of the blue, a text from him flashed on my screen. “Hi.”

I didn’t respond initially, but after a couple days, curiosity got the better of me and I replied back, “Hey!”

No response.

Fuck. Me.

It was obvious he was playing mind games with me now. Or maybe I was being a little too sensitive. I deleted the thread and moved on.

Or so I thought.

Two days later, he texted me again. “Hellllooo.”

Is this a drunk text? I thought, and I told myself in a mantra to ignore him: Just delete the message. What’s the point in trading “hellos” back and forth? You don’t want him—that’s clear—and he only wants to drive you insane with this hot and cold act. Don’t give him the satisfaction. Don’t give him the satisfaction. Do not give him the fucking satisfaction!

But the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. So I texted back, “Hi… How are you?”

Stupid move, because the ensuing conversation was the strangest interaction I’ve ever had with another “alleged” human being (because I’m starting to question whether this man is even real).

“I’m in a bad mood” was his answer.

“Why?”

“Don’t know.”

“You don’t know why you’re in a bad mood?”

“Why would I lie?”

“Because most people know why they’re in a bad mood— Or you’re lying to yourself.”

“I’m not.”

“Okay then.”

“But thx.”

I’m really beginning to wonder why I’m not a lesbian already because the mental gymnastics women have to go through just to understand what the fuck these indecisive men are thinking is exhausting.

© 2023 Nortina Simmons


It’s StoryADay May! I’m not promising that I will write a story every day this month, but I’m going to try. I had every intention to write a story inspired by today’s prompt, but then I had the strangest conversation, and I really need you guys to tell me I’m not the crazy one here because I don’t understand why this guy continues to consciously pick up his phone to text me only to say ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! The only reason why he’s not blocked yet is because he’s giving me material. 😂

Morning Inspiration: Writing Prompt No. 231

man and woman standing against yellow stone wall a few feet apart

This is your morning inspiration! Let your mind be inspired by today’s prompt and awaken your will to write. It doesn’t have to be a complete story. It doesn’t even have to be a complete thought. The challenge is simply to get those creative juices flowing, kickstart a new day of writing, and discover the talented artist within.

This Morning’s Prompt

man and woman standing against yellow stone wall a few feet apart

Most men don’t know what they want…

Morning Inspiration: Writing Prompt No. 230

This is your morning inspiration! Let your mind be inspired by today’s prompt and awaken your will to write. It doesn’t have to be a complete story. It doesn’t even have to be a complete thought. The challenge is simply to get those creative juices flowing, kickstart a new day of writing, and discover the talented artist within.

This Morning’s Prompt

I’ve had enough of her endless nagging…

While washing dishes

It’s ironic that something as mundane as washing dishes would summarize a tumultuous seven years in such a violent, sudsy clatter.

At mediation, when my soon-to-be ex-husband demands I return the ring, I whisper to my lawyer about the broken garbage disposal.

Joshua’s razor-sharp hearing picks up on my words immediately. Funny how he couldn’t put that superpower to use when I listed for him the things he needed to do to save our marriage.

Number 1 was Don’t fuck your secretary.

“You lost it on purpose,” he scoffs.

“I didn’t feel the ring slip off my finger.”

“And I suppose it’s my fault you never got it resized.”

“Silly me for expecting the man I’d been in a relationship with for half my life to know my ring size.” Twelve years of dating and seven years married, and he still can’t stand my sarcasm. I lean back in my chair satisfied that I’ve gotten under his skin.

“Did you even try to look for it?” he asks.

“Yes, I stuffed my whole fist into the tiny hole. You know what that feels like, right?” It was the exact position I found him in when I stopped by his office for a surprise lunch date, the secretary spread eagle on his desk.

Of the three of us, only the secretary was surprised.

“Let’s stay on task, please,” the mediator says, rubbing his eyes under his glasses. We’ve been at this for weeks, and we’re no closer to reaching a resolution now than we were when we first began the process.

It’s Joshua’s fault. He keeps adding things that shouldn’t even be on the table. Why should I give him the ring when it was his actions that dissolved our marriage? And if he is to succeed in his pursuit to get the house, I’ll need that ring to be able to afford a place to live!

“I told you I never wanted that garbage disposal installed!” I blurt out. “I watch too many horror movies.” My marriage was a horror. It took me 19 years to realize I was with a man who never respected me, who would add another dish caked with dried up marinara sauce to the sink after watching me clean the kitchen for 20 minutes. He’s destroyed my dignity, my self-worth and still isn’t satisfied. He wishes to take the last of what I own to complete the looting of my heart.

He would’ve loved it if my fear of a phantom garbage disposal suddenly switching on with my hand still inside had come true—shredded flesh and blood splatter spraying the dishes I’d just cleaned drying on the rack.

All for the twinkle of a half-carat diamond caught in a black abyss.

“Tell you what,” I say. “If you get the house, you can have the ring. If you can find it.”

But I will fight tooth and nail to keep this roof over my head, and when the divorce is finalized and he’s the one left with nothing, I’m ripping that goddamn garbage disposal out with my bare fucking hands.

© 2023 Nortina Simmons


It’s StoryADay May! I’m not promising that I will write a story every day this month, but I’m going to try. Today’s prompt is “Write a scene in which a character is looking for something or someone that has been lost.”

lone star in night’s sky

lone star in night’s sky
I stand under your spotlight
darkness encroaching

© 2023 Nortina Simmons


Written for Ronovan Writes Weekly Haiku Challenge.

Morning Inspiration: Writing Prompt No. 229

woman lying on bed

This is your morning inspiration! Let your mind be inspired by today’s prompt and awaken your will to write. It doesn’t have to be a complete story. It doesn’t even have to be a complete thought. The challenge is simply to get those creative juices flowing, kickstart a new day of writing, and discover the talented artist within.

This Morning’s Prompt

woman lying on bed

I dragged myself out of bed like a zombie. I hate Mondays…

Nortina’s Egyptian Travel Diaries (#AtoZChallenge): “Z” is for Zoser

Well, we’ve finally reached the end of the A to Z Challenge and the end of your virtual tour of Egypt. I hope you enjoyed this series and that you learned something new about Egypt and Ancient Egyptian culture, and most importantly, I hope that my summaries of our adventures helped you to feel like you were actually there.

While this may be the end of the challenge, it definitely is not the end of my Egyptian travel diaries. There are so many more stories I could share about our travels, and maybe I’ll post short fictional vignettes inspired by those stories on this blog sometime in the future. For now, I’m zonked, and I hope to get some rest before diving into the next challenge (StoryADay May).

So, to close things out, I want to go back to the beginning…

Not the beginning of this series, but the beginning of pyramid building in Egypt.

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Nortina’s Egyptian Travel Diaries (#AtoZChallenge): “Y” is for Yallah!

Yallah! The A to Z Challenge is coming to a close. Just two more letters left to go! I can do this. I can do this…


Whenever I travel, especially if I’m going overseas, I like to learn a few words and phrases in that country’s language to be able to communicate with the people there in case I ever get lost.

I studied Spanish in school. So when I traveled to Spain, Puerto Rico, and Mexico, I had no problems getting around. And in the Maldives, though I was unfamiliar with the language, many of the locals we met spoke Hindi, and I’m learning Urdu, which is Hubby’s native language and sounds a lot like Hindi, so we could still hold a conversation. However, as we were staying at a resort, the staff all spoke English, so we actually didn’t need to exercise our Hindi until we were back on the main island.

That being said, when visiting another country, you really shouldn’t assume that everyone understands and can speak English. Besides, people tend to be more welcoming when they see that you had the common courtesy to try to learn their language before coming.

Three words/phrases that I’m most likely to say no matter where I travel (either foreign or domestic) are:

  • Hello
  • Thank you
  • Where’s the bathroom?

Greetings, gratitude, and hygiene. Those three will get you far in any country.

Unfortunately, I didn’t really study much on my Arabic before leaving for Egypt, which is uncharacteristic of me. But then I realized that I actually know more Arabic words than I thought. When you watch as many foreign-language television series as I do, you eventually start to pick up on certain words and phrases.

  • As-salaam-alaikum/wa-alaikum-as-salaam – Peace be upon you/and unto you peace (a common greeting among Muslims)
  • Shukran – Thank you
  • InshaAllah – If God wills it
  • Habibi – My love/my dear
  • Mubarak – Congratulations/celebratory expression paired with holidays (eg, “Eid Mubarak!”)

Of course, social anxieties prevented me from practicing my language skills while in Egypt for fear that my Southern American accent would mispronounce a word. Plus, call it ego or pride, but Brother can get a bit testy whenever you present yourself as knowing more than he does, and he was growing quite the big head by impressing our tour guides with all his Egyptian knowledge not originating from a movie (unlike mine).

But I don’t care. I’ll continue to watch The Prince of Egypt, The Mummy, and even Gods of Egypt and point out all the imagery I recognize from actually being there.

Speaking of The Mummy, I finally know what Ardeth Bay is saying in this scene, as our tour guides would shout it as they herded us along at each stop on our sightseeing tour.

Yallah! Let’s go!

—Nortina

“A” is for Arrival
“B” is for Buyer’s Remorse
“C” is for Cruisin’ the River Nile
“D” is for Delays, Delays, Delays
“E” is for Empty Tombs
“F” is for Fragrance
“G” is for Great Pyramid of Giza
“H” is for Hatshepsut
“I” is for Island Temple of Philae
“J” is for Just Engaged!
“K” is for Kom Ombo
“L” is for Luxor
“M” is for Museums and Mummies
“N” is for Nefertari
“O” is for Osiris, Set, and Horus: Gods of Egypt
“P” is for Pizza Hut Fail
“Q” is for Queen Cleopadrat
“R” is for Ramesses
“S” is for Seti I
“T” is for Traffic
“U” is for Unfinished Tombs
“V” is for Valley of the Kings/Queens
“W” is for Wigs
“X” is for SphinX

This April for the A to Z Challenge, I’m sharing my experience of traveling to Egypt last month. These posts likely won’t be in chronological order, depending on what memory each letter strikes up, but if you’d like to follow me on this journey, subscribe below.

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Morning Inspiration: Writing Prompt No. 228

woman lying on couch in the dark using mobile phone

This is your morning inspiration! Let your mind be inspired by today’s prompt and awaken your will to write. It doesn’t have to be a complete story. It doesn’t even have to be a complete thought. The challenge is simply to get those creative juices flowing, kickstart a new day of writing, and discover the talented artist within.

This Morning’s Prompt

woman lying on couch in the dark using mobile phone

My yearning for you grows stronger each day we are apart…

Nortina’s Egyptian Travel Diaries (#AtoZChallenge): “X” is for SphinX

So this post was almost titled “X-rated” for some highly sexualized statuettes we spotted in the gift shop at the Egyptian Museum in Cairo. Call me a prude, but given the conservative culture in Egypt today as it relates to sexuality, I was quite shocked to see something so explicit…

statuette of Egyptian god with large erect penis

After doing some research, I learned that this is the Ancient Egyptian fertility god Min, who is often depicted with an erect penis. I guess the disproportionately large penis is to show his potency. Legend has it that women would touch the erect penis in hopes of getting pregnant.

Now I’m not saying I touched it, but “shark week” did not come at the scheduled time the following month, and I nearly lost my mind. There’s no way, I thought, there’s simply no way!

So is it real? The legend had to come from some truth, right? All I know is I’m not going anywhere near that penis again because I’m not having any babies I didn’t ask for.

I’ll stick with the God I know, thank you!

By the way, Min wasn’t the only sexually explicit figurine we saw. Earlier that day, while shopping in one of the stores in the market, I spotted a whole shelf of phallic incense holders, and the shelf below it had incense holders depicting various sexual positions. There were sensual ones, such as the man behind the woman cupping her breasts, and others more pornographic in nature, such as the woman positioned face down, ass up, and the hole for the incense stick exactly where you’re thinking.

I didn’t take a picture of those, as the shopkeeper was lurking over my shoulder every five minutes, and I didn’t want him to think I was interested in buying any of them. What would Mom think?

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